The Heart Portal

Transforming Evil: The Only Way To Win

Some of the things I see during deep meditations are so controversial I am not sure if there are many people I can even share them with…
Yesterday morning I went into one, using a binaural beats soundtrack and just a tiny amount of ‘tea’, which I feel does help to open up the spiritual senses more….
In my mind’s eye, I saw myself once as a ‘Light Being’. And I saw the creation of a sort of ‘Shadow Self’. I wanted to know what it would be like if I were to create something that was like me, but not me: my opposite. The apparition/ life-like form of me that came into being was one who was blind; unaware of their connection with the light of infinity. Ghost-like; empty inside. But, having a somewhat likeness, she had a desire; a will to live, to seek out what was missing. Being disconnected from her source had created a hunger.
And as I found myself musing over the nature of this being, a curiosity came over me that I was unable to shake.
Perhaps, like in my childhood mirror dreams, it wanted to draw me in…. The being in the mirror in my dream had demonic, menacing looking eyes.

I find this vision and those dreams kind of ‘demiurgic’…..they remind me of the gnostic story of creation (Sofia and Yaldeboath) as described in the Nag Hamadhi library.

Here’s the bit I feel people really won’t like/ agree with….

It came into my awareness yesterday morning that what the ‘reptilians’ really are, are the shadow sides of us; split off: therefore appearing as separate.

The more we reject them and hate on them, the more we perpetuate and fuel this neverending cycle of duality.

As the words spoken at the beginning of the movie ‘The Fifth Element’: “Evil begets evil Mr President. Shooting will only make it stronger”.

This was also confirmed to me in a dream, in which I tried to poison someone who represented evil….but I failed when he tricked me.

The evil ones are only evil because they have been blinded; disconnected from source; disconnected from empathy.
They seek to feed on the light, because they don’t know any other way to feed the endless pit of hunger inside them.

We keep trying to destroy evil but it keeps returning in another form.

Energy can’t be destroyed…..but it can be transformed.

We can bring the darkness to the light.

We can make the unconscious conscious.

Lilou in the “5th Element” film shows the way.
However, they depicted it in the movie as a romantic love that was embodied and projected by her (which transformed into the powerful light). It’s not romantic love as such.
It’s to ‘real eyes’ we are all One.

There is no evil….just the delusion of separation and the ignorance of our true nature.

This is what severed the ones who dwell in the shadows from their connection…..with empathy.

This world is an infusion of the light and the darkness.
We all have been blinded, to an extent.

I feel it is time to awaken.

Ho’oponopono.
🖤🤍💜

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It’s All Within! 🥰 (Tuning In)

It’s all there, within us, all of it. All we need to do is calm the waters of our proactive, thinking mind to such an extent as to become receptive.
The ‘spiritual heart’ is not located in the physical heart, but the physical heart is the place in our bodies which can feel it; being the organ receptive to it.
The universe, within the infinite mind of the All is expressed as frequencies of varying sound and colour…..Each colour corresponds to a sound and within this primordial flow of light sound are the All’s children of light who sing their songs as part of the whole. We are in the All, as the All is in us, but we are also free to be whatever we wish to create. We are not fixed in form, but free flowing and infinite.

Interestingly, when I was using my intent to receive answers/insights into various things, I realised the area the intention was coming from appeared to be in my solar plexus. To attune myself to insights about a particular aspect of creation, the key is to bring the frequency of my awareness to the frequency of that part of creation.

To know the All, and become one with the All, this can be reached when we attune ourselves more and more to the place within where we are all connected as one, and in remembering this again we have returned with love unconditional.

Tip: binaural beats can be quite helpful when meditating and reaching altered states of consciousness.

The Devil Within & The Philosopher’s Stone

We all have a shadow…”unconscious blind spots” (‘Wetiko’)….I find it interesting that Paul Levy describes the Wetiko this way. The gnostics describe Yaldeboath (the Satan-like ‘imposter’ god) as blind and as mad.
In Eastern traditions they call it the Ego.

This shadow, this unconscious influence within us is parasitic in nature and keeps us trapped in cycles until we have the tools or the right soul medicine providing the catharsis to move the poison from the deep dark depths in which it was hidden….move it out into the light to be alchemized.

The philosopher’s stone is within us all.
💛

“With wetiko disease, we are not being infected by a physical, objectively existing virus outside of ourselves, which is why there is in reality nothing outside of ourselves to be afraid of. The origin of the wetiko psychosis lies entirely within the human psyche. The fact that wetiko is the expression of something inside of us means that the cure for it is likewise within us as well”. ~Paul Levy, author of ‘Wetiko’ and ‘Dispelling Wetiko’. https://www.theosophical.org/publications/quest-magazine/3472https://www.theosophical.org/publications/quest-magazine/3472~Paul Levy, author of ‘Wetiko’ and ‘Dispelling Wetiko’. https://www.theosophical.org/publications/quest-magazine/3472https://www.theosophical.org/publications/quest-magazine/3472

Awakening to Lucidity in the Shared Living Dream

None of the deeper answers can be found in the thought mind. The thought mind is the place where our soul/ consciousness experiences the projection: this collective, co-created holographic reality. Our consciousness- our heart centre (‘intuitive mind’) created the thought mind through which to experience many different adventures.
Somewhere along the line, we thought it would be a good idea to create a world in which we can forget that we are the dreamers creating the dream. We became lost in a prison of our own devise.

It’s time to wake up.

Our deepest fear is our own power…..
Also, another fear, buried deep, is that if we were to wake up, everything would be destroyed….this isn’t true….this is just a layer of the illusion we created to ensure we stay asleep.

We forgot we are the dreamers of the dream. We co-created a place where we could forget who we are, to become fully immersed in the experience. Unwittingly, we became lost in a prison of our own devise. We’ll never find the answers to the deeper questions in our “rational” minds: we have to look within our hearts; this is where our soul is centred. The mind is like a magic box or lense we created through which we experience our co-creation (projection)….consciousness (energy) projected and filtered into thought forms.

I feel that this forgetting of who we really are is somehow related to a disconnection between our heart centre (intuitive mind) and our thinking, ‘rational’ minds. We have forgotten the origin of creation and identified with the creation itself. As a result, fear came into existence. Fear creates all kinds of blockages. We need to clear the way; to fully face and transform our fears in order to realign and re-attune with our true, inner core essence.
I truly feel that this is the key… this is the way to freedom. Not by looking for it outside of us, in the projection. Ask within where the projection is coming from, and look there.

Making the Unconscious Conscious Again….Empathy….

I’m convinced a big energetic shift in consciousness is needed, in order to make any lasting, real difference in the collective healing. I feel that this relates to the unified field of consciousness and tuning into pure, infinite & unconditional love as much as we can, in order to make the ‘darkness conscious’ and awaken empathy in even those who have disconnected the most.
I feel this is true alchemy and I feel this is the hidden meaning behind the ending of ‘The Dark Crystal’ movie.

Quotes from movie “Powder”:

Jessie [in regards to the Deputy being taken away in an ambulance after Powder transmits to him the feelings of the dying deer he had shot]: What did happen? Why won’t you tell anyone?
Powder: I let him see. I opened him up and I let him see. He just couldn’t see what he was doing, so I helped him.

Lindsey Kelloway: What are people like, on the inside?
Powder: Inside most people there’s a feeling of being separate — separated from everything.
Lindsey: And?
Powder: And they’re not. They’re part of absolutely everyone, and everything.
Lindsey: Everything? I’m part of this tree? Part of Zach barking over fences? You’re telling me that I’m part of some fisherman in Italy, on some ocean I’ve never even heard of? There’s some guy sitting on death row — I’m part of him too?
Powder: You don’t believe me.
Lindsey: It’s hard to believe that — all of that.
Powder: That’s because you have this spot that you can’t see past. My grams and gramps had it, the spot where they were taught they were disconnected from everything.
Lindsey: So that’s what they’d see if they could? That they’re connected?
Powder: And how beautiful they really are. And that there’s no need to hide, or lie. And that it’s possible to talk to someone without any lies, with no sarcasms, no deceptions, no exaggerations or any of the things that people use to confuse the truth.
Lindsey: I don’t know a single person who does that.
https://en.m.wikiquote.org/wiki/Powder_(film)

The Love Frequency is ‘Sophia’s Correction’; ‘The Fifth Element’; the True ‘Great Reset’

Several months ago I had a dream. In this dream I encountered this villain, and this villain represented one of the main culprits who is responsible for much of the evil, cruelty and injustice in the world. I saw his face in the dream, but could not remember it after I woke up. Anyway, in my dream I tried to poison him, in order to rescue the world from his influence. However, my own plan backfired, and he ended up tricking me into drinking poison myself. He told me I only had 3 minutes to live. In my dream, what terrified me was the thought of my loved ones who I would leave behind. In a panic, I phoned for an ambulance. Then the 3 minutes passed, and nothing happened. I was perfectly ok, and unharmed. The only power that this evil villain had over me was the power I had given away, through my own belief- that I had something to fear.

I had been pondering this dream, over the last day or so, wondering if it had different layers of meaning to it. Was it futile to try to overcome evil in such a way? Maybe it would appear to solve problems in the short run, but always return again, in some other form? For energy can’t be created or destroyed. And haven’t we been trying to overcome ‘evil’ in this way, over many eons? Through war, violence and bloodshed? But what did this ever achieve? Only pain, suffering and a vicious cycle.

I remembered a scene that had stood out to me, at the beginning of an older but well loved sci-fi movie, called The Fifth Element. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=n6oZTq_KsXc&feature=youtu.be

Quote: “Evil begets evil, Mr President. Shooting will only make it stronger”.

I had also been thinking about this recent upload from a channel on YouTube, called ‘Quantum Truths JC Kay’. She had titled it ‘The Reset is the Love Frequency’. It is #225, (2 and 25 also happens to be numbers I have a connection to). https://youtu.be/mLgY9WI4RX8

This was what I shared in the comments section:

“I stood on the hillside a year or so ago, really searching deep inside as well as calling out for guidance with my heart…asking what am I meant to be doing? How can I best help here? The answer I got wasn’t what I had been expecting; in some ways I had been hoping for something more interesting. The words that came to me, pure and clear were just simply: “Hold the love frequency”.’

After sharing this and pondering my dream, I felt the urge to rewatch the beginning and ending scenes in The Fifth Element.

Here is a link to the scene near the ending: https://youtu.be/Rm8i9qMxeRQ

While watching it, I suddenly found myself in floods of tears, because now I knew….loud and clear…. the answer to the question I had been asking.

Quote: “Evil begets evil Mr President. Shooting will only make it stronger”.

We can’t destroy evil with the same type of energy that created it.

We remove evil effectively and permanently when we transmute it.

The Enchanted Mirror

The world is like an enchanted mirror. Our feelings act as a magnet, and the mirror world acts as a conduit….reflecting back: both our most wonderful dreams as well as our worst nightmares.
When we alchemize our inner darkness by healing and bringing the unconscious to the conscious….we transform our world, becoming lucid dreamers of this collective dream.

The Heart Portal (a poem)

The mind is a labyrinth that has no ending,

There is a mind beyond the mind;

A doorway to our being.

By tuning in,

And feeling

It takes us home:

To our true home.

We’re tapped in;

Interconnected

Things make sense,

It all becomes clear.

Let’s go here

To the place beyond fear.

Focus your awareness

On your True Self compass

The doorway of your heart:

The portal of your soul.

Is It Really A Prison Of Our Own Devise?

To anyone interested in the gnostic teachings and/or exploring the nature/origins of the condition of the reality….I had these thoughts…

The earth realm (or this universe) was created to provide the opportunity for beings to experience contrasts- the difference between ‘good’ and ‘evil’.

As beings immersed themselves into the dream, this accidentally led to a sort of fragmentation of a part of themselves. Carl Jung calls it the unconscious. Paul Levy calls it the ‘wetiko’. The Nag Hammadi scriptures call it ‘the demiurge’ or ‘Yaldeboath’.

I saw a vision once of the universe as the shape of a heart, entangled and imprisoned inside some sort of energetic web. Sensing the distress coming from beings within it, others in the multiverse looked upon it and organised teams to be sent down to help to set free the consciousness trapped within.

Well, I have been wondering in the last few days…what if this web of imprisonment (this grid around the world and recycling system that Wes Penre has described)…what if it was never created nor is being inflicted by ‘external’ forces? What if we are stuck in a prison of our own device?

“Unhappy Girl” by The Doors

Unhappy girl
Left all alone
Playing solitaire
Playing warden to your soul
You are locked in a prison
Of your own devise
And you can’t believe
What it does to me
To see you
Crying

Unhappy girl
Tear your web away
Saw thru all your bars
Melt your cell today
You are caught in a prison
Of your own devise

Unhappy girl
Fly fast away
Don’t miss your chance
To swim in mystery
You are dying in a prison
Of your own device

“Unhappy Girl”= the sons and daughters of the Aeon/ Goddess Sophia (in the gnostic teachings)..humanity…who all carry her spirit, her essence? 🤔

If in our purest essence, we are all sons and daughters of an original, pure consciousness (‘living light’?)…then logic would summise that we are creator beings with creative powers…

If creation EMANATES from consciousness…pure mind or imagination…it seems very possible that our own unconscious thoughts…the blind spots in our minds…the wetiko….could very well be creating some kind of energetic grid or web through which we unknowingly imprison ourselves…. 🤔

We very clearly do it to ourselves on a microcosmic level. (We create prisons of thought, of the mind. Like programs of thinking that can keep us stuck).

If we are essentially cosmic creators (in a state of sleep and deep forgetting) then might it not be likely that we are doing the same thing but on a macrocosmic level? Perhaps there is no great adversary….only some fragmented, blind part of ourselves? Some rejected, starving wraith that cries out in some demented fashion, only aware (in its sorrowful, decay ridden state) of the will for its own survival?

What if the way out is not so much through ‘fighting’ but through healing, through bringing all parts of our own consciousness to full awareness? (As above, so below…as within, so without). Through the unified field…as living light…we are all connected.

Intuition vs Imagination

Over the last few days, I’ve been processing a few different insights. I’ve been wanting to write them down and share them but I have been quite busy. The first one is regarding intuition. I was thinking about ways to distinguish between our true, inner knowing and our mind’s creation (i-magi-nation). One time I was pondering this, I sensed that it is all about ‘tuning in’. So maybe our mind’s will is like a dial on a radio and our thoughts are like the interference which distort the signal, making it unclear. I realise that there are many sayings going around promoting ‘following the heart’ and trusting our ‘feelings’. I sense that there is something very sacred deep within our heart…but that it goes beyond the heart itself, and deeper than most feelings we are used to having in our daily lives here. Where do emotions come from? Thought via the brain creates many of the feelings we have, while in the physical body. Therefore many ‘feelings’ can lead us down different ‘garden paths’, or places in the labyrinth of our minds: a journey of self perpetuated endlessness sustained by its very own complexity.

I thought of skimming stones as they glide across the water, creating circles within circles, moving further away from an original circle…..source?

So if we want to tune in…to be in touch and in tune with our intuition….perhaps we must first settle our thoughts and calm the oceans of our emotions? (Hmm, as I type this I wonder if thought is related to electricity, and if feeling/consciousness are related to water?)

Albert Einstein said “The intuitive mind is a sacred gift, the rational mind is the faithful servant. We have created a society that has forgotten the gift and honours the servant”.

The other day, I thought of this, as I pondered. I also thought of Bruce Lee’s quote. “Don’t think, feel. Your mind is like a finger pointing to the moon. Don’t concentrate on that finger or you will miss all the heavenly glory”.

I wonder….is there a way we can regain a connection with our true intuition (deep in our heart centre) and regain the ability to navigate our lives from that pure consciousness….our heads/ minds being a great tool we can use to process consciousness into experiences and i-magi-nation/ creation in which to have adventures within worlds such as this, created from dreams of beings such as we, in our original, Aeon/creator god-like states of being…..

Update: Recently I have been listening to ‘binaural beats’. I have been finding this a very helpful way to ‘tune in’. Although it is most effective when listened to in a state of mindfulness/ relaxed focus. Also be sure to use earphones or headphones to experience the proper effect 👍

Edited, some further thoughts:

Imagination: our centre of creativity

Intuition: our inner compass/ ability to direct ourselves while we are within this realm; this ‘co-creation’. (Since the source of all is ‘mind’, perhaps it is a fine line between the two…so while imagination is part of the process of creation, intuition is about tapping into the ‘co-creation’).